By The Dashboard Light

I never knew that I loved men who were

Tall, dark & handsome until I met him

He was 6' 3" with skin so smooth 

His was the shade of creamy milk chocolate 

He moved like a spotted leopard on the prowl

Cautiously, calculating each new step

I used to see him every day at work

Our desks positioned in such a way

That he had a perfect view 

Of the black-seamed stockings I would wear

That revealed my young tender thighs

Through the slit in my black pleated skirt that

Would casually fall open, whenever I sat down

I would often wear 4" black patent stiletto heels

To purposely taunt & tease him

Wondering if he felt the same electric sparks

The ones you only read about in the stories

Of those adult magazines 

Each night after work I had to go home

B'cuz, I was married at the time and

Bored with only missionary; never oral sex

Night after night it was the same fk'n thing

Tied down by a ring & two little kids

When my heart was crying out to really live

On weekends; I wondered what he was doing

He had a life of freedom that my heart craved

I would often find myself fantasizing about

What it would be like, to have sex with him

Our beautiful bodies grinding together

It was extremely dangerous to think about

B'cuz our thoughts & what we focus on

Becomes our reality; this I know to be true

When our eyes would meet over the boardroom table

No words needed to be spoken b'cuz I could tell

From the look in his eyes; that he felt it too

With that, my infatuation with him grew

We never spoke about our lustful thoughts; however

The conversations we shared in the office often

Included sexually suggestive double entendre’s 

That afternoon, one of those slipped from his lips

He asked me if I wanted to meet him after work 

That night would be a turning point in my life &

I was willing to take the calculated risk

One that I've never regretted; not even to this day

B'cuz my body was aching to feel him by my side

To break free from the shackles of marriage

He took me to a secluded place where we parked

On a dead-end road with no streetlights

Only the headlights from the vehicles

Heading northbound on the 410

That would sometimes flicker in our direction 

The windows quickly steamed up 

With tiny droplets of water pooling together

Running down the inside of the windows

Dripping from the heat generated by our

Passionate kisses & our overheated flesh

That night I'll never forget b'cuz

He gently reached down between my legs

To ease the seat back

So that he could easily maneuver his tall frame

To just the right angle & it was there

In the front seat of his silver Nissan Sentra 

When he used his mouth to pleasure me orally

Up until that point, I'd never been with a man

Who had ever gone down on me

His lips were magical

So soft, full & eager to please

His tongue was the key that unlocked 

My sexuality & Pandora's Box

It was the night I would finally discover

What it felt like to finally let myself go

Remembering the nights, I used to cry myself to sleep

Thinking the 2 minutes of moaning & thrusting

Was all there ever was to sex

But that was before he came into my life

Thankfully, he was different

Every moment we spent together

He took my breathe away

Truth be told; it wasn't the only time 

We found ourselves in our secret rendezvous spot

Parking for hours at a time

My ass bump'n up against the steering wheel

It was like paradise by the dashboard light

I only wish I knew then, what I know now

There wouldn't have been any second guessing

Nor would there have been any doubts

A few stolen moments were all that

We were ever able to share b'cuz I had a family &

They needed me there

B'cuz my Mom had just recently passed

Like Lady Godiva on a racehorse

I was gone & it wasn't until 29 years later

When our paths were destined to cross again that

The memories of our secret nights together

Would finally come to light

All the what ifs that have haunted me

Over the years, until that incredible day when

He called out my name

Hoping ...wondering, was it really me?

It was the happiest day of my life

To be reunited and back in touch with him

Live & in the flesh all over again!