twin problems

Hi, my name is Addison. And what am about to tell you, is not good. I have a twin, Maddison. My mom picked those names because she thought its cute, and fit us. Guess what, I don’t think it’s *cute*, and so does my twin! My twin and I, are not bffs. Instead, we sometimes hate each other (which is not really normal for siblings). And, sometimes, we cause huge fights, which makes us separate. The problem is, we never bond-sorry we barely bond. Anytime we return from school, our parents always see a frown on our faces, and it's not anyone, it's us. By the way, speaking of twin problems, this morning, as we were having breakfast, Dad told us some news that no one wanted to hear. “Alright, I know you girls don’t have enough time to bond with each other, so I thought, maybe, if we sent you to a class activity this weekend, there, you might have fun together. How does that sound?” Mom got up out of her chair and started applauding and cheering like it was a game. While, me and Maddison looked at each other, and gave that look, the, “Are you serious right now?” look. Maddison then answered, “No, am not doing that.” I wasn’t shocked when she said that, or surprised, or terrified. Honestly, I didn’t care. I didn’t want to do it either. Dad said, “Oh c’mon, this is a chance for you girls to stick together.” “We do stick together,” Maddison said calmly. “Really?” Dad asked. “Yep. Especially at school. You know, when one of us is getting bullied or teased,  we help each other.” “No, we don’t?” I said confused. “Yes, we do.” “No, we don’t!” “Yes, we do!” “No, we-” “OK girls, that’s enough. Just think about it for the week. But for now, get your backpacks and get to school.” Mom said as she took our plates to the sink. I’ll say, I didn’t like Dad’s idea. And I still can’t believe he would even think of that. Even if it was our choice, he would still let us *bond* like he said. 

 At P.E., Ari and I were paired up for dodgeball. It wasn’t my favorite subject, though it’s not really a subject. But anyway, Maddison was also in our class, and she paired up with her *best friend* she calls her. And not that I have any problem with that, it just reminds me of her as my teammate in P.E. when we were in the 3rd grade. It was really cool at that time, we didn’t care about what we thought of each other. We were…(do I really have to say it,) we were…*bonding*. When I got hit by a ball, it was from Maddison's throw. She gave a new look this time. I think it was a, “Got you!” look,-like a smirk. And I hated that. But I didn’t do anything. She always did that anyway, I just sat on the bench by the wall and waited for the next round. After the whole game, we were lining up, and Maddison and her BFFs crossed us. “Seriously?!” Ari said shocked. “Just leave her alone. It's fine.” I said calmly. I wanted to confront Maddison about it because she has been doing that since we started Middle School. It’s really annoying. But, I was scared. I know it’s weird. But…I couldn’t do it. That’s just not the type of twin I am in the family. 

mess out of my mind. I wanted to take it away! I wore my Addidas shoes, took my phone, and went out of the house. Without saying goodbye or telling anyone.

As I was walking, I got tired and went to the nearest park near my house. I sat down on one of the benches and saw if my parents or my sister had texted me But…they didn’t. I don’t why Maddison was bragging about me being the *best daughter* in the family. I mean clearly, am not, as you can see. It was getting late, so I decided to go back home. But home was a little bit far, so I reached there pretty late. When I reached, I opened the door to see Maddison, typing on her phone. It looked like she just going back upstairs. “Maddison?” I asked scared that she was going to tell Mom. “Oh, where are you coming from?” She asked. “Um, I-I, I was just coming back from a walk,” I mumbled. “Really? That’s cool! Did you have a good walk?” She said surprisingly. “Uh, yeah-yeah I did. -wait, are you being sarcastic?” “Does it look like I am being sarcastic?” “...Look, please don’t tell Mom or Dad. They specifically told me not to.”

“And?” “And…I did. I disrespected them.” “Yeah, looked like you did.” “Please I am begging you. Don’t tell them!” “Mm, sure. But, under 1 condition.” “What?” “Uh, obviously, you have to do what I say?” “What? No!” “Ok, guess am about to snitch.” “Wait, look, I am not the only one who might get in trouble. You probably are too” “What do you mean?” “Um, obviously, you have a boyfriend” “What?! How do you know?” “It’s all around the school,” “REALLY?!” “Shh, don’t wake them up.” “Ugh!” Then she went back to her room.

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*Yawn.* It was another day. A very boring day, infact,to be a boring day. Want to know why? 

1. Maddison is becoming more rude and is ignoring me.

2. My BFF who I’ve been with for about more than 2 years 

got us separated, and yes, she was the one who started it.

At school,-in class, the teacher, Mrs. Petosa, told us we were having a science fair project. And it was this Friday. We had only 2 days to do the project. And the people I am talking about are parents! Yeah, parents. I get really scared of presenting to an audience. And the fact that my best friend isn’t here to support me like she always does was worse. I wonder where she was right now. But that’s when I heard giggling at the classroom door. When the bell rang, I went out to check it out, and it was…Ari with 2 girls from Maddison's group-probably. Wait, since when was she hanging out with them? Was it because I left her and she had no choice but to talk to them? She saw me and gave a sign to the girls that she would be back. She came close to me and asked, “Hey” “Hi,” I said. It went quiet for a while until I asked the question that was so obvious. “So…mind telling me why are you hanging out with them?” I asked. “Oh, well…Maddison asked if I could join the group, and…” “And?” “I said yes. I mean we aren’t talking anymore and besides, Maddison is so nice, like she is very kind! So I don’t why you hate her so much.” “Hate her? I don’t hate Maddison, I just…don’t like her that much. I hate to say this but, she is a threat to me. She makes my life miserable and she thinks I am the attention seeker here. If you know her more like I do, which you should, you wouldn’t be in that group in the first place.” “Well, I am sorry! That I haven’t been a good friend to you. That I never support you, ever! You left me, you gave me no choice but to go to them. And it's not your decision to tell me who to hang out with.” “Are you saying I am being bossy? Ari, those girls are….not in your league. They are way better than you. I am sorry too but, you’re not cool!” “Really? I am not cool?” I felt really bad for her. What I said, was not cool. Seriously, so not cool. I went to sign out myself so I could go home because I didn’t want to stay at school anymore after that. Not only has the world made me angry and stressed, but…I have also done stupid things. I wanted to go straight to my room when I reached home, but I think I needed to talk to Mom. When I reached, I went to her room and asked, “Mom, can talk to you?” “Addison? What are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be in school?” She asked shocked. “I-I need to talk to you about something.” “What’s going on?” “Why did you have to give birth to us, as twins?” “What’re you talking about?” “I mean, you could have given birth to us one after the other. There, I wouldn’t have a twin.” “Is there something wrong with having a twin?” “Yeah. Maddison is. She is ruining my life! Like, always.” “Honey, I know Maddison is making you angry all the time but she is still your sister, your twin sister.” “You don’t understand! It’s not just that, it’s,” “It's what then?” “First, we fight, a lot. And it keeps getting worse and worse and I hate it. Second, I got into a fight with my best friend, Arianna, and, well…she started hanging out with the boo-I mean with Maddison’s group and…I just don’t know what to do now. I am stuck.” “Addie, did I ever tell you that you and your sister came out of me by a mistake?” “What?” “Yeah, your Dad did not want to have kids at that time, and, well, we did. He got so angry we didn’t talk for 3 days. And I thought he’d get a divorce with me. But, he didn’t. That’s the same with you guys. You always fight, but you never broke your family’s promise.” “What?” “To never stop being sisters, to never get apart from each other.” “But when we grow up, we will get our own houses and it's not like we will be living together.” “ You’re right. You won’t be. But you will ever stop being twin sisters?” “No? Not unless one of us dies.” “(*Chuckles*) Yeah, but, you know you still had a sister right? Exactly. I know you guys would have done this. I knew from the fact that you both were so happy together when you were young, that you’d grow up to end like this. And it's normal. Sibling fighting is okay. Me and my sister used to have arguments when were young too.” “So, we got this fighting matter from you?” “(*chuckles*). No, I am saying it's fine to be stressed. Which I know you are.” I started crying right after she said that. “I am sorry, I am sorry if I have caused any trouble in this family.” Tears started dropping like raindrops. “I just want to have a normal life.” “Aww baby, your life is normal, you’re normal. No matter what. Okay?” “But-” “Maddison shouldn’t be in your mind right now. I am telling you, she is going to be with us for more than 5 years. You still have time to reunite with her.” “What if we don’t?” I stop crying. “Don’t say negative things to yourself. Positive always has to come first. You have to believe that you will smile with your sister one day, okay?” “Yes.” “Can you that imagine in your head?” I started visualizing me and Maddiosn jumping up and down in the mud at a park. It looked so fun. I remember those times. I wish I could go back to the past. I went downstairs and waited for Maddison to come back home. When she came back, she looked furious. I hope it wasn’t something about me, it’s always something about me. She came running to me and asked, “What, did, you, do?” “W-what are you talking about?” I muttered. “You think you can fool me? Huh?!” “What?” “You think, you can just talk anyhow to my friends?” “Friends? I didn’t do anything to your friends!” “Yes, you did! Yes, yes, you did!” “Maddison, I really don’t understand what you’re talking about?” “I am talking about Arianna you twit!” “Arianna? What did Arianna do?” “You mean what did you do?" 

“I didn’t do anything?!” “Oh, yes, you did. Wanna know what? You teased her! That’s what you did. You teased her just because she was hanging out with me and my friends. What’s wrong with that Addison, what’s wrong with that?!” “Maddi-” “Shut up! Look, I know you are my sister and everything, but, I never liked you. Okay? I never wanted you in this world. I didn’t want, a TWIN!”

Those words made my heart drop. It felt like I couldn’t hear anything. I wanted to defend myself, but, I knew it would make things worse. I ran crying loudly to my room, slammed the door, and hoped to never see light, or the world again. 

The next morning, I decided not to go to school. Everyone knows I couldn’t. I was too tired to do anything. I was weak. Like a worm. Although I wanted to talk to Arianna about yesterday and to say sorry. She deserved it. Unlike me. I changed into a proper outfit and went downstairs to see my Mom and Maddison fighting about something. I heard what they were saying, and it was about me. About I and Maddison always fighting. Especially about last night. I tried to sneak outside but then Mom saw me and asked, “Addie? Where are you going?” I ran faster than ever and went out. I knew I was doing the wrong thing, but I needed my best friend back. I ran 5 minutes to her house and rang the doorbell. Luckily, it was her Mom who opened the door, and told me Ari was in her room. I jogged up to her room and knocked. “Who is it?” “Major Tom.” That was our little word code we say when we were little. She answered, “Great, our member is here!” Good thing she remembered. It was a really long time. And I am glad she atleast says that. I entered and said, “Look, I am really sorry for what I said to you, did to you, and-” “It’s okay. I already forgave you.” “R-really?” Yes, I need to be the one saying sorry. I lied to Maddison about what you said-actually, I didn’t, because you

did say things to me. But still, Addison, you’re best friend. There is no way I’d be angry at you. Unless you kissed my crush or humiliated me in public, then yes. But right now? I will support you. Always support you. Remember that.” I started sniffling and tears came out of my tears. I cried a lot this week. I hugged her so tightly I could tell she was going to die. She looked confused, thinking something had happened to me. I asked, “What? Is something on my face?” “No, it’s, why do you look sad? Like you had a big argument or something.” “Well, since you lie-sorry, told Maddison that I teased you, she came home yesterday angry. I knew I had done something bad, again. She said some horrible words that, I-I couldn’t take it anymore!” “What words?” “Hate, dislike, twit, and…yeah,” “Oh, Addison.” Then she hugged me again. “I’m sorry. You don’t deserve it.” “Exactly, I don’t deserve to be in this world. Just like Maddison said.” “Hey! Where is that girl who is always looking out for things? Where is that brave spirit?!” We laughed, so hard our chest started to hurt. “Thanks, Ari. You’re the only friend who made me smile, a lot.” “And, what about your sister? Isn’t she also your best friend?” “Used to. I guess we will never be like how we were when we were young.” “Don’t say that! It’s gonna happen. Speaking of sisters, you need to go back to that house and get this over with.” “Get over what?” “This…hatred thing. You guys have had it for over 2 months. It needs to stop! I can’t stop seeing my best friend always crying about it.” “Crying?” “Fine, suffering. C’mon, let’s go stand up to her!” We went back to my house and when I opened the door, I saw Maddison at the dinner table, crying. I have never seen her cry, especially like that. “Um, what’s wrong with her?” Ari asked as we were both confused. I removed my shoes and went up to her, “Hey, what’s wrong?” “What’s wrong? YOU’RE WHAT’S WRONG! Addison, how many times do I have to say this, I hate you! YOU MAKE, MY WHOLE WORLD TURN UPSIDE DOWN!” I slapped her right after she said that. I didn’t mean to do that, infact, I wasn’t expecting to do that. I just…hate when she says something like that. I started crying again. “You’re the one who turned my world upside down. You’re the one who is always making me cry like this! Every night, every day. Why? Why Maddison why?!” She went quiet and stopped crying. Then she changed her angry face to a…it looked like an, “I’m sorry” face. I hugged her and cried more. I and Maddison never had a good time. Not unless you’re talking about when were little but apart from that, no. I never expected being a teen would be this hard, and yes, we are teens. 14 years old. I stopped hugging her and said, “I loved you Maddison, and I still do. And you or anyone can't take that love I have for you away. You can get angry at me every single day, but I will still care for you. Because you’re my big sister. And I miss you, I miss the old you.”  I and Maddison then stopped crying. “Me too. Honestly, I never liked the *new* me. Inside me, I hated it. Outside me, I loved it. I tried to stop, but I couldn’t. I was weak. And I am sorry.” “It’s fine Maddie. It's fine.” I then gave her a little kiss on the forehead and gave her a very big smile. “Promise me you will never get away from me?” She asked. “Promise,” I answered. Ari came in and gave both of us a hug, together. And I loved it. I knew, this time, there wouldn’t be any problems anymore. We were all back together :)

The end.